Knock it Off (Poem)

If I didn’t know any better I’d think you weren’t over me But I know something that you will never see You don’t hate me cuz you want me Or for the things you say I’ve done Or some stupid fight ten years ago Or what I put up on my blog You hate me cuz you hate yourself And I’m an easy punching bag Cursing me is like ejaculating On your disgusting porno crap It’s an easy fix that keeps you going Until the next time you get the urge

Step One: Powerlessness (Twelve Steps)

Upon much contemplation over what powerlessness means to me I have reached the fullness of my conviction. I struggled with powerlessness the first time I got sober because it was easy for me to stop drinking. If I was powerless over alcoholism why was I able to quit with such ease? It wasn’t until my resentments came to a boil that I gave way to a nearly two-year run of binge drinking and blackouts.