Hate Being Me (Poem)

I hate being me
A constant nagging in my gut
As sure as life will carry on
You can rest assured this world will not

I can’t explain it
Can’t escape it
Can’t hide behind my face

So deep inside my thoughts
I can’t explain the miles I race

Stuck in a daze
In a maze of deja vu
Trying to figure out the world
To understand how mountains move

Just don’t give a fuck
Don’t understand why they don’t like me Only friend is turning up

They say I’m not special
There’s someone out there just like me

When you find em
Let me know
So we can both hate being me

The Coast is Never Clear (Poem)

As I start the next chapter in my autobiography I praise the Good Lord for waking me up another day Free from the horrors of active addiction I have found a way to live and enjoy life… just for the day I thank God oh Lord for stickin and stayin Even in my darkest hour The hideous four horsemen were denied the boast of my obliteration Terror, bewilderment, frustration, despair The whistling winds of loneliness The burdens I couldn’t bear All have been arrested along with worry and fear I’m talking about a God who taught me how to sit up straight Get down on my knees and pray Quit whining and communicate

Pity Party (Poem)

I’m throwing a pity party And no one’s invited There will be no balloons And no excitement I don’t want to hear all the silly things you think I want to hear And don’t dare say, “It’s gonna be alright And you’re gonna be okay” I just wanna be left alone with my dark forboding thoughts Grandiose my obstacles Catastrophize my faults The whole world is full of morons And I’m done hearing all that noise I’m sick of waiting around for better days Or for truth to have a voice

Introducing myself in the mental health field (Journal Entry)

I recently joined a revolutionary movement in the mental healthcare field. I was accepted into a training program to become a Recovery Support Specialist. I have only completed two classes yet I have learned more about recovery in sixteen hours than I ever learned throughout years of treatment. I have so much to say about this program but first, allow me to introduce myself.