The Dragon is Coming

Oh God… I’m really losing my shit. I just feel so incomplacent. At least I have one person who has been here for me out here in Staten Island. This is the second time I ended up out here by myself with nobody I know. Last time it ended in disaster. I don’t think it will end like that this time because my job is very supportive. But still, I’ve been in my head way too much lately. I’ve started pacing again which is not a good sign. I need to start going back to meetings but I work so much that when im not working im tired as fuck. I feel like the dragon is coming back up again and I don’t know how to stop it. I need a vacation…