Pearly Fence (Poem)

I didn’t want to get out bed this morning But I got out anyway Should I be annoyed that life is a pointless paper chase Or revved to ride another day I got a yearning in my gut Torment that accrues with each passing sun Should I be so sad that it makes me sick Or high off the fight that makes my bones thick Sometimes I feel like I got nothing worth to give Nothing worth the push and pull of living this life to end I fantasize a life that I don’t have to talk me in When I can wake up knowing it’s gonna be a win I don’t know what it’ll take to get me off that pearly fence All I know is I’m alive and it don’t have to make much sense