Thinking Messed Me uP Again (Poem)

‘Fuck it’ is such a dangerous thing to say
It’s like saying ‘I got this’ when I’ve lost my sanity

Change happens against my will
No matter how much I want my way

When I try to go back
it pushes me forward
as I fall flat on my face

But running from the past is like trying to see the future
I always wake up in the same place

Stuck in my head
with a bottle in my hand
My thinking messed me up again

Cuz I said ‘Fuck it’
When I should have said grace
And I lost my will to move on

Stuck in quick sand kicking
When I should have stayed still
And reached for the nearest arm

And I said ‘I got this’
when I should’ve bout faced
And listened rather than talking that chase

Stuck in my head got me going insane
My thinking messed me up again