The Disease (Poem)

You were my friend from the deep end Shelter from my own bull The lighter side of darkness that I couldn’t see was not light enough You took me further than I wanted to go when I said I wanted to stop And when we got there you kept me longer than I could stay And played me nonstop And when I wanted to go You tried to stop me from leaving Fed every lie that you cooked You told me I was all wrong I had nothing to give No point to writing my book You were so indestructible I lost my voice I had no strength to tell you FUCK OFF I lost so much of me How could I try to help me? The only thing that could save me was God