Hello, my name is Maria and I am a…
fall down
blackout
barf shit and never clean it up
saint by day demon by night
self-centered
self-hating
self-sabotaging
backsliding
mean
Let me try this again… (Twelve Steps)
February 28, 2021 by Leave a Comment
The Bough Breaks (Lyrics)
February 26, 2021 by Leave a Comment
Down by the river
I see the sunflowers in the rain
And I can’t forgive that double rainbow
For finding me a dead end road again
Beneath the Crack (Poem)
February 22, 2021 by Leave a Comment
Days seem like hours
Three months went by last week Plans are all forgotten
Woes are all I speak
I Want to Live (Poem)
February 18, 2021 by 1 Comment
I want to live
Not just exist
Trying to survive one day to the next I want to love
Impervious love
Not the kind of love that can’t stand it all
Growing up in Spanish Harlem
February 9, 2021 by Leave a Comment
Welp… I did it. I went to rehab. Now I’m living in sober housing in Spanish Harlem. I’ll write more about it one of these days. I been been attending a lot of groups so I don’t have much time.
Genesis (Poem)
February 7, 2021 by Leave a Comment
Dedicated to my sister in recovery, Genesis…
The book of genesis is full of hard won battles
Successes and failures
Trials that persist until the end of times
The road to recovery is like the exodus to the land of milk and honey
Only those who persist in doing what is right can make it to the promised land
What it is (Poem)
February 4, 2021 by Leave a Comment
Dedicated to my sister in recovery, Amelia… If it is what it is
It can’t be what it was
Cuz if it is what it was
Then what was is all there is
And if what was is all there is
Then there can never be anything else
Jeanie’s Bottle (Poem)
January 27, 2021 by Leave a Comment
Dedicated to my sister in recovery, Jeanette… It was cool at first
A place I could go to relax Refuge from those hectic days
Escape from all my plans
Stranger than Fiction (poem)
January 26, 2021 by Leave a Comment
Dedicated to my sister in recovery, Naomi… I couldn’t make this shit up if I tried
The things I go through just to get high I have a disease that tells me I’m okay
I don’t need help
I’m the boss of me
Murder One (Poem)
January 25, 2021 by Leave a Comment
Dedicated to my sister in recovery, Jay… About face my representative
Don’t try my murder one
