Lost in Space (Poem)

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How can someone who burns so hot be so cold?
How can something that feels so right be so wrong?

It’s like I’m lost in space and I can’t go home

The further I drift
The hotter I burn
The colder it gets
The more I yearn

For something less painful than the stake in my back
I can’t relax
I can’t look at myself
This can’t go on
I’m still trying to make sense of it

I can’t make amends to it

Maybe I’ll figure it out
But right now I’m outside in the rain with no clothes on

Shouting my pain out loud
Arms stretched out
Knees on the ground

Maybe I can wash it all off

The guilt
The shame
The hurt
The blame game
The no love

I try so hard to be still…
It’s even harder to feel

I told my brain to relax

But I’m not one to be told
When I’m on
the wrong track

How can I dare to atone?
Payback the debts I’ve sown?

Can’t face the demon alone

But I’m lost in space
And I forgot the way home

 

 

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