Viva la Rebellion
I believe in love
I believe in the higher dream
I believe in hope
I believe in serenity
I believe in who I am
I believe in the hell I’ve known
I believe in light
I believe in letting go
So when it comes to the highs and lows
And all the grief from everything I loathe
I believe in God
I believe in faith
Love is more than a hollow phrase
Undying devotion is True Love’s appraise
Unfailing Love is a solemn troth
Better to be sure than to break your oath
When love is like the morning mist,
Like the early dew that can’t persist
Amongst the sun’s immortal rays
Then vaporize
Wreak cloudy days
Broken hearts
A stream of tears
Staunch bitterness
And rampant fears
Then love is nothing but a joke
You’ll love to hate until you croak
Love is Power
And True Power is Love
But Power itself is void thereof
There is no Love in a powerful one
For Power is subjugation for everyone
Power and Love are add odds with each
With Love ALL Power will soon decrease
When the Power of Love defeats the Love of Power
Then there will be Peace
My brain is shot
My bones are frigid
I try to be soft
But I come off rigid
I guess I should stop
Or I should stop guessin
I guess I should stop
Or I should get knocked
I’m high off the shit
And low off the Four Loco
I’m out of my wit
And don’t know here it go
I’m caught in a zone
With the sound of a knock knock knock
I pray they don’t get me
But I know when I’m got
My brain is shot
I’m cold then I’m hot hot hot
I try to be soft
But I’m comin off rock
I guess I should stop
Or I should stop guessin
I guess I should stop
Or I should get dropped
The devil in my eyes
It took a long time to see what I fail to be with that
Devil in my soul
How could I know the heed in what I sow with that
Devil in my heart
I tripped into a valley of death to all I sought when that
Devil took my pride
He took it all
He beat me down
He praised my fall but that
Devil didn’t win
I stood before my God
I prayed for love
He blessed my heart
He cleansed my soul
He opened my eyes
And now
I see
What will it take to stay outta my head?
A guard standing watch over a barb-wired fence?
Just my luck
There’s an alley not too far round the way
I better come strapped with a flashlight and blade
As shadows flicker by
I feel more like a ghost
I keep drifting
As I come to a fork in the road
Pace back and forth
Bite my nails
Beat that drum
I keep playing that tape
I don’t know where to turn
I reach for the first thing to calm my nerves
But the last thing I need is what happens in return
So what will it take to stay outta my head?
Both means to this story lead to the same end
What I gotta do to get this taste out my mouth
To get this bird out my brain
To get my head out this cloud
Just one sip and I’m off to the races
I’m not gonna slack
Got no time to be down
If it tastes good, looks good, feels good
I want it
Can’t get it outta my mind
I just bought a case of fuckitz
I’m locked down and I’m ready to go
And I ain’t hearin whys or what ifs
I got an itch and I ain’t waitin it out
So you can save all your tears in buckets
I’m going rounds and I’m taking me down
As I suck down this case of fuckitz
I hit rock bottom
Then I got back up
I kept on walking
Still stuck in the muck
I kept runnin
Kept grindin
Stayed foolin myself
Threw shade at my redemption
Kept diggin that hole
And now I know
There’s nowhere left for me to go but up
Dedicated to my sister in recovery, Genesis…
The book of genesis is full of hard won battles
Successes and failures
Trials that persist until the end of times
The road to recovery is like the exodus to the land of milk and honey
Only those who persist in doing what is right can make it to the promised land
